Erudite Roulette: I don't know what to tell - TM Darshini, Impact Club Toastmasters

May 19^th, 2016: it was a beautiful Sunday. I hoped to relax all day at home after a tiring work week. But, like always, things hardly goes according to my plan. The day had an interesting beginning. However, I knew it would have a very interesting ending in any case.

Being at the age of 25 and staying with parents in India is no joke. Like it happens for most other girls in our country, my parents were on my head. They always made a point on my marriage, much to my irritation at every moment. Weekends were no more fun, and I did not know what to tell, for all their so-called logical reasons for me to believe that I was at the right age for this lifelong commitment. On this day, they were expecting a prospective groom to visit my home. My parents wished he could become the siron-in-law, as they thought he lacked nothing and he would be the right guy to take care of me. This did not worry me much - because they had the same opinion on the previous guys. I had very few hopes, as I acknowledge my eccentric personality, however, I was looking forward to meeting one more person on this earth whom I have never come across.

It was evening, they did come on time to my surprise. I had to serve coffee, which was most difficult. With all difficulties I made a successful attempt. Yes, I did. There he was sitting firmly with an affirmative look and full of energy. We introduced ourselves (well, I forgot his name right at the moment and did not bother to ask him again). Talk continued for next 20 min. it was mostly on general affairs. I tried to cover my poor general knowledge by using Toastmasters’ skill by making the same point in 10 different way and it worked. I did not know Toastmasters would come in handy at that moment :P The talks ended and he bid his adieu.

Now my parents were more excited to know my response. It was then, something in me did say "Yes" when they asked if I liked him. I am still not sure why I did so. I did not know his name, I did not know where he was working, I did not know how much he earned, and I have never cared about looks. The intelligent part of my body, my brain started shooting questions and I still did not have an answer for its logical questions. Was it my heart that ruled over my brain? I don’t know, it’s just I somewhere felt he would take care of me well.

I got officially engaged to this guy just a week later still without knowing where he worked. I still don’t know what to tell if you ask me why I did so. The thoughts running in mind can be explained, but that’s not the case here. I don’t call it love but I may name it as intuition. Being in this relationship for two months now, I don’t say we are a perfect match for each other but all I can say is my intuitions weren’t wrong!

 Writing this, I still feel unsure of the reasons behind and all I can say is “I don’t know what to tell” and I will just be like water.  

Topic given by: TM Swathi